I've been thinking about life and how rare it is for people to experience what I had experienced. Fact is, in a few years time, I could be somebody different. Different in a good way I mean. I could be someone influential in politics. I could be the talk of the town for my talent (in which I don't know what it is for the time being… but I'm pretty sure I'm good in writing junks!). I could be the next corporate figure or the best woman in business. I could be an icon for all I know.
Let's face it, Kuala Pilah people always have the biggest of courage! Take Allahyarham Tan Sri SM Nasimuddin for example. He didn't even have a degree and he quitted school at Form 4 telling his dad that he didn't want to study but work. He was very passionate about car. Nowadays, just look at the kind of legacy he left us with. Another Kuala Pilah icon, Allahyarhamah Shamsiah Fakeh, she joined communist because she sincerely believed she could make a difference to Tanah Melayu 50+ years ago. Nowadays, she is a nationalist and there are a lot of books and articles emphasizing that. Don't let me start with Datuk Napsiah Omar, Tun Ghaffar Baba and Pendita Zaaba because all these people came from a cowboy town namely Kuala Pilah (so tak payah nak eksyen nih jadik orang KL konon2 yer…). What I'm trying to say here is, if anyone going to make it big in life, there is high possibility that he or she is coming from Kuala Pilah :) KP has EVERYTHING… from automotive tycoon to communist to Wanita UMNO to a Pendita OK! KP rocks!
Now, back to my story, I was pretty much a wreck last year. But then again, sometimes it takes a full emotional meltdown to bring yourself back up. I was such a girl last year; teary and got upset about almost everything. But then again, I was living a real life drama… so, to even bring myself back up is a miracle in itself so to speak! However, someone I adore told me to never say "never" or "can't" because if we try hard enough, we will get what we want. It's just a matter of time and at such a young age, we have all the time in the world. Yeah baby! My strength… :)
I am not a good writer but then again, that's what friends are for – to check grammar mistakes and to spice up my sentences. There are few reasons why I want to write a fun book about myself *vain alert*:
1. A friend suggested me to do so! Now, when I carefully think about it, I should!
2. What's the point of having an interesting and adventurous life if you can't write about it? Jokes, pictures, articles, letters and everything will be inside! Bare-it-all... real people with real names... Yummy!
3. Let's say I make it big one day, (in which I know I will) people will talk about the past anyways… so, instead of letting them to enjoy gossiping and badmouthing for the sake of making their way to hell easier, I might as well let them read their way to hell (or maybe save them from hell.. hmmm). *yeah I'm such a bitch... whatever!*
4. Nowadays, my take on life is different. I used to think life is hard, full of tears, misery and whatnot. Then I realized, my life was a misery because I care too much of what people will think etc. I was worried about the future and NO ONE in this world knows about that but God. Duh? I was so stupid to worry about something that doesn't even happen yet. Fact is, all of us know where life actually ends: death. Therefore, instead of having headaches thinking about something that I don't know, I might want to enjoy and live my fun life. As young as I am, I have a lot of wisdom to share really :)
5. What is the worst that could happen when that book is published? Nothing really. It's my story and it's a true story. Some people love horror, some people love fiction… Me? Other than myself, I love my life *wink2* What if people don't like it? To like or not to like is a matter of preference really. If people like it, thank you very much. If people don't like it? It is not my problem really. Come on, only emotionally needy people require other people to please them. I'm copying Tun M's principle in life basically. When people badmouth or look down on you, instead of having verbal fight, headaches and grudge… you write a book or a poem about it – because not only the people who love you will read it; those people who talk bad about you will read it as well. They hate you, but at the same time, they pay and take their time to read about what you think. Ironic is it?
6. I'm tired of people threatening to expose other people's past. "Uuu I will exposed what you did to everyone, sedara mara and whatnot"… I mean, threatening people is lame on the first place, but to come up with such a lame threat over and over pulak tuh? That is lamer than lame! Something that I learnt from Carrie Bradshaw, if you want to expose something, you should do it the classiest way possible.
7. The most important reason of all, I believe everything happened for a reason. As much as God promised that death will happen to each and every one of us, He owns our destiny as well. I am not proud of what had happened, but I am not ashamed of it either. So, I'm going to own up to it and bite the freaking bullet myself. Honesty is the best policy right?
8. Last and not least, publishers and bookstores are now "local friendly". Even buku cara2 masak ikan goreng that worth 10 pages pun boleh laku nih…
Owwhhh I will make sure the book is deliciously scandalous, funny and witty… just the way I like my reading! Manuscript on its way… my witty co-writer(s) can't wait for this project! Give me 2 weeks for the first manuscript! Writing a book is waaayyyyy better than doing my Masters degree. I'm putting my Master degree on hold for one semester or so!
Float Like A Feather, Sting Like A Bee :)
XOXO,
~S~ (read: Sarimah Bradshaw)
